Grungy Princess

""Hiiyy! I just wanted to feel cool and post one from my iPhone... Lol. I just got my new cover and screen protector in the mail. Its very personalized now. (:

No, actually, it looks a little public school trashy. But that's OK! I like being a little grungy here and there. Gives it a little edge. Even Mrs. Princess has to take off the heels every now and then.""

That was what I did on my phone (obviously) yesterday. I didn't actually have the time to get a whole story posted. And that's OK. I hope you aren't expecting to here from me precisely EVERYDAY. That's not gonna happen. Who has the time for that?

Posting from my phone really wasn't that cool either. I couldn't change the font size, style, OR color. What a crime! D:

Hmmm, so much to talk about. I was riding the bus after school today, like usual, and I found myself having a little conversation in mah head. To myself, of course.

I was analyzing....

words.

Either I have too much time on my hands (not possible), I'm strange (very possible and somewhat correct), or I'm just intuitive. I'm gonna go with that last one if y'all don't mind.

Words. Well, they're pretty important.

Words have so much meaning to them. Even the tone of your voice can totally change the meaning of something.

I have had my fair share of miscommunications.

A big word, I think, for a reason. They cause alot of trouble!

A huge producer of those troublesome occurrences is t3xt1ng!

Do not get me wrong.

I am a huge supporter of the thing. I use it aaaalllll the time.

but... but... but.........

it do b causin alot probs.

It causes many more problems than JUST miscommunication. Among that, there's a lack of common spelling knowledge, huuugee grammar issues, and impersonal relationships. I mean, there's a huge vote on the dislike of the text, "k". Ask anyone.

Really? How personal does that sound? Now, I myself use that phrase sometimes because I only have a second or 2 to reply, but people use that all the time without a real reason.

When kids text, they use short terms such as "u", "b", "ttyl", "lol", "ily", and "brb". Again, nothing necessarily wrong with that, but it travels from just texting to school, work, and real conversations. I don't know about you, but that just sounds like an uneducated, ignorant person to me. Also, I'm finding that it's more and more common to leave out all punctuation. First, um.... why? It drives me insane. Sometimes, I don't even know what they're trying to say! No. When I type, text, and speak, I use correct punctuation, correct grammar, the whole meal deal.

Why not expect more from yourself, or others?

Lastly, which I think may be the most important, impersonality. It annoys me THE most when someone texts me all the time, but has never once had a conversation with me face to face. Am I really that ugly? I know it's not cause I'm intimidating. I'm definitely not the tallest person you know. What's so bad about talking to people in person? They're just a person. Just like you.

You lose the emotion, the facial expressions, the PERSON in texting.

If I write a book, which I plan on writing several in my lifetime, I will have so much reason for using a certain word or punctuation. Know that, and you will grasp the full meaning of my book. (:

Off that topic, there's more to my day.

From the place where my bus drops me off to my house, there's about a two block walk. And in this time, I contemplate my life. Quick, yes, but if it doesn't come to your mind immediately, it must not be that big 'o deal.

So I put in my earphones, turned up the music, and closed my eyes. A funny thing about closing your eyes and walking at the same time. You're not going near as fast as you think you are. I feel like I'm just galloping down the street, but when I open my eyes, I haven't even made it to the mailbox!

Of course, being the intuitive person I am, I have some deep thoughts about that.

I think that the bigger your steps feel like, the more you think of yourself. I'm pretty confident, so I feel like I can walk super far when I've really just walked a few feet. Now, this is just a theory, but it's interesting right? I think it'd be really cool if you went and tested it then told me if your results were the same as mine. Lemme know what you get! (:

In the usual day, my mind has millions of thoughts just like these. People need to open their mind, think deeply about things, listen to what you're mind's saying to you. I bet you'll find that you have a lot of interesting, creative thoughts too.

Think about it. (;

-from the mind of Hannah Jean Cummings. Food for thought.

It's New

So heeey. How's a nice new blog for a brand new start, huh? Alot of stuff has changed lately. Things I never thought would happen. Just goes to show that you can never fully know what's ahead of you, and can never "plan" your future. God's got his own plans.

I'd say it's a fair blend of good and bad. You gotta live with the bad if you wanna get the good.

So I started public schoolll. Having never been to a public school in my entire life, that was a huge change. Definitely a new experience. Now, being 15, I was emotionally prepared. There was nothing new socially. I knew about drugs, I'd heard language, seen alot of movies I maybe shouldn't have; I'm a teenager. I'm familiar with the goings-on in society, and what's expected, what's seen, and what's usual. What I wasn't ready for was letting go of what I already had.

Now, being the first born child, I'm the one that sticks my neck out first, that acts all big and grown up when I'm really just trying to be brave, obtain my role of being the oldest, most mature, grown up one. I really just talk big. I was being very.... clueless. I didn't know what I was getting in to. To be honest, I never thought it'd happen. So of course I was into the idea. I didn't know what I was getting into.

Granted, it was a good time for this to happen. There was a natural break in life. Starting new was going to happen no matter where I was.
I thought it was going to be somewhere else. I'd had plans for memories elsewhere. I was ready to start a new year at Temple, expecting way less drama, and just a fun year all around.

Yeah... that's not what I got.

I'm not complaining. It's turned out really well.
It was really hard at first. When you're so sure of something, then it changes at the last minute, you get caught a little off guard. It's hard to let go of something you were looking forward to. Who knows, maybe this will be better than what I had planned?

I have a really positive attitude now, but t was a really hard switch. Public school is a totally new atmosphere. In a way, it's so much more laid back. And if you know me, you know that's what I like. (:
It's so much easier to wake up and choose whatever I want to wear to school that day. My outfits reflect my mood.
For teenagers, identity is a BIG thing. It defines who you are,  what you are, what you wanna be, who you wanna be like, what you wanna do, what you won't do. Those are all very important to people who are just starting to make those decisions for themselves. And when someone takes that away from you, what do you do? I think that's where teenagers get their defiance. Sooooooo...

UNIFORMS.

Those are KILLER. That is the surest way to take a person's identity. One of the many misfortunes of being "a child".

I've unlocked one of the many mysteries created by teens. Why are there such crazy hairstyles or clothes styles? Why would anyone want to look like that?
It's simple, and I believe that if we would take the time to think about it, we'd all know the answer, instead of just judging people instantly.
In such a vast world filled with billions of people, what sets you apart from everyone else? We're all trying to be an individual; to find a way to get people to remember you as YOU and not have you be lost in all the crowds on the earth.

I find that the more I attend public school, the more I find myself trying to find ways to stand out, to be remembered. Now think. I've been there for, about 9 weeks. Can you imagine blending in for 15 years?

All this to say that it's hard enough being a teenager with all the usual changes going on. Now to add MORE change?
It's been tough. But you know what? I think the outcome is better than what I was before. My mind has been opened to many more possibilities, my perspectives changed, my will pushed, my emotions strengthened, and my determination tested.
I'm stronger than I was before.
Could you handle it?

In every situation, think about the future outcome, the positive. You may be at one end of the rainbow, and to get to the other side, you've got to cross through the colorless. But who says you won't make it to the end? Will you end up stronger than before? Is it possible that, after everything, it'll all be worth pushing through to the other end of the rainbow?

Find YOUR journey.

 -from the mind of Hannah Jean Cummings. Food for thought.